I sat here today wondering what I should blog about. It has been a while since I have posted and, to be honest, it is because sometimes I feel much of what I post falls on deaf ears. So this morning, I sat staring at the blank page. I felt the need to post, but had no idea what I should be posting about. So, I prayed.....and here is what I feel God want me to say:
I get so frustrated when my fellow Christians share all of the funny things or sayings I post. They may share the occasional Bible verse or inspirational thing I post, but very few ever re-post or share my orphan pictures. How can they look at these little faces and not feel compelled to do the the easiest thing of sharing that innocent child's picture in hopes that their family finds them? Why do they not feel that tug at their heart to do something?!
My 15 year old has expressed to me that she no longer wants to hear about "my" orphans. Nor does she want me to tell her about any sad news stories that I feel compelled to discuss with her. She would not discuss the school shootings at all. She says she cannot deal with "all that sadness" and that "nobody wants to hear about it." This breaks my heart. Is this how my friends feel when I post? I wonder how many have changed my status updates on their Facebook pages to receive "ONLY IMPORTANT" updates from me, so they don't have to look at the sweet babies who are dying while waiting on a family to come save them? By the way, who decides what is important?!
I ask God, why? Why don't others feel the way I do? Why don't they want to be a voice for these children? Do they genuinely not care? Knowing many of them, I cannot believe this is could be true. Are they embarrassed of being persecuted or made fun of? Do they think I am crazy for what I do? Do they not think it is "their problem" since it is happening in another country? Could it be that they, as my daughter, don't want to have to face the sadness and reality of the world we live in? Do they not know that as Christians, we are called by God to take care of these children?
My husband once asked me how I could look at the Reece's Rainbow site all the time. Didn't it make me depressed? My response to him was, "How can I NOT look?" I will admit, there are days it may make me depressed, but not because of the children's circumstances, but because so few are helping in this fight for them! Again God, why? Why? Why?! WHY?!!!!
Ephesians 4: 1-8 "I, therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, entreat you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling with which you have been called, 2 with all humility and gentleness, with patience, showing forbearance to one another in love, 3 being diligent to preserve the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. 4 There is one body and one Spirit, just as also you were called in one hope of your calling; 5 one Lord, one faith, one baptism, 6 one God and Father of all who is over all and through all and in all. 7 But to each one of us grace was given according to the measure of Christ's gift. 8 Therefore it says, "When He ascended on high, He led captive a host of captives, And He gave gifts to men."
This morning I realized that perhaps not everyone does feel this calling. God has created us all with unique gifts. He has called all of us to do different things and placed these callings on our heart. Just because not everyone feels God telling them to help these children is not a reason for me to give up or be discouraged. I am doing what I know He has called me to do. I have found a purpose to life that I never had before. I know this is what God wants me doing. I know my posts have reached others....people I did not even know were listening have felt the call. There are probably others that I do not know of. Therefore, I will stand diligently at my post, however depressing and sad to some it may seem, for I am doing God's work. To all my fellow orphan warriors I declare, "Onward christian soldiers!"
Psalm 17:4-8 I have followed your commands, which have kept me from going along with cruel and evil people. My steps have stayed on your path; I have not wavered from following you. I am praying to you because I know you will answer, O God. Bend down and listen as I pray. Show me your unfailing love in wonderful ways. You save with your strength those who seek refuge from their enemies. Guard me as the apple of your eye. Hide me in the shadow of your wings"